"to achieve the marvelous, you must do the unthinkable...,

the answer will hit, like a big psychic orgasm,

if you listen to your dreams. they never lie."

e. jean carroll

ooops.

been a long long while since i've been around here. but one of those saturdays, where i should possibly be doing something about the state of the house. or out enjoying autumn blue skies and walking the pup [which of course, i will do as soon as i finish my cup of coffee and writing forgotten words here] or heading off to the flea market which i had promised myself to do today...

but, i came by to visit. here.

and as familiar as things still feel here. as foreign as things feel here. strange and something that you can't explain or place your finger on. but it could start an entire novel of ramblings that i'd just rather not get into at the moment.

and as i'm writing this, i'm also using my wonderful female talents of multi-tasking. checking out flights home for christmas and looking for vintage german folklore postcards on ebay [being that i reckon i'm not going to head out to the flea market] and about three open windows of emails that i should be writing but just not inspired to do so at the moment.

awful.

and things are good here. somedays more good. somedays less good. but i always believe it's about mind over matter, so i'll simply say they are good. when you live in the very day, it never really feels as though something new has happened. but then, you take a moment and glance back over the shoulder and see, that really much has happened. much is in motion. much is progressing.

omondieu! [link] still surprises me and there are constant little sweet happenings that make my day. this is something i had never reckoned was going to happen with this project as basically, it started off as "play". maybe that's what makes it fun or keeps it alive in it's own little sense. but little things like going out for dinner with a friend to a lovely tapas bar in a different city than where i live and the waitress asking, "is that an omondieu! ring? i've been wanting to buy one for so long now." and my face turning endless shades of red until said friend took over the rest of the conversation for me. she said that she had read an article about the rings, the company and myself a few months ago and fell in love with the idea. that i think is sweet. or being asked to send off a package for a celebrity poker game in los angeles last week. i still haven't comprehended that one yet. but apparently the 50 invited guests [men and women alike] were all going to be wearing or given one of the rose brooches. oh. and that jason statham officially has my business card. yum. he's not on my favourite "actor" list, but he does qualify for the favourite "man" list. a reporter was doing her junket interviews recently for the transporter movie and had one of her rings on. she's been a true supporter of omondieu! that i've been so thankful for. i guess that amber valetta was asking about the ring and melanie ended up giving her the ring. jason was standing there saying that's not right and he wants one too which of course, melanie wouldn't give him and instead, she gave him my business card and told him to go buy one himself. this was a moment for the girls. so i had a laugh with that and although i haven't been able to say that he's been on the website and purchased a ring from me, it's just kind of cool thinking that the boy is out there and for even a brief moment in time, possibly knows that angela and omondieu! exist. or to think that jason has my telephone number? ahem. silly me.

but all in all. it simply reminds me that yes, all things are possible. all things. and usually when you simply least expect it.

but i've been wanting to move on from the flowers for a while now. and working on new ideas. projects. i'm hoping that my january, i'll have the first samples ready and be able to introduce these in just as magical a way.

also working on a little project called wundertuete [link] which was inspired by some amazing press i myself had received in the past. i couldn't believe the power and the potential of a small feature with what's basically just an online newsletter and in the midsts of that all, i kept thinking, i want to help others experience and have that chance. trying to get the press coverage or the traffic to a website can be a difficult game to play. and there are so many amazing independent designers, small businesses, artists and ideas out there. so wundertuete is just a way of trying to help spread the word. it's still a small project but the response we receive or have been able to share in such a short time already has assured me, that just maybe, with that small hope of maybe, i'm going in the right direction. i have my ideas as to how it might evolve, but i'm also letting it simply take care of itself. the idea in itself is definitely nothing new, but it is in a bit of a category of it's own here in germany at the moment. mind you, the germans can also be in a league of their own as well. they're a tough cookie to crumble.

and funny sweet brings a smile to the face moments of late. [and cautiously considering the dignity of myself and my pup as i write this...] but imagine a moment yesterday. of walking into the bedroom and finding your pup, happily content on the bed with a "batteries included" female object of desire eloquently placed in his mouth. ahem. i still haven't figured out how he managed to "dig this bone" out, but excuse me for saying it bluntly. it is now officially "chewed to the bone" and maybe i should have captured the moment on camera [again, note me considering the dignity of both my pup and me...] but i was too busy laughing and having a fit as the moment arose yesterday.

back to other news. i have 10 photographs in a lovely sweet gallery in rochester, new hampshire at the moment. the exhibit had it's vernissage yesterday and it's something that left me thrilled. a group exhibit with artists in various mediums, and to be honest, something i've almost been procrastinating for awhile. the gallery had been interested in showing my photography for a while now and i don't know why i was doubting in myself. this exhibit is showing the cafe series i've taken over the years. the january & february exhibit which i'll also be a part of will be showing the intimacy and hotel rooms series. but it's lead me to hopefully find myself placing the camera in the hands more often and has inspired new ideas and projects for me as well. so i thank susan and the gallery for the oppurtunity.

but right now, i've managed to finish my coffee, come to the conclusion that something definitely needs to be done in the house and looking out the window, i can hear autumn calling my name. so pup and i are going to head out, walk thru the crunch of leaves, head off to our secret place under the weeping willow tree by the stream and say hello to saturday.

hope all is well and sweet...


angela.

these days upon days upon days come and go.

and i have absolutely no idea where.

i think i'm in such a hurry getting ready for june,

that i'm forgetting the real moment i'm in.

and this month of may.

it's been a good month.

nothing spectacularily good.

but nothing spectacularily bad.

on the thirtieth of may, i'll be on my way to los angeles

a trip i've been pushing aside for a while now.

i'll be at a style lounge event for the mtv awards.

i have no idea what to expect or who will show or not show

but i reckon it's going to be an experience non the least.

a german tv nettwerk will be joining us

as they want to do a docu on us.

am i really that interesting? i reckon not.

just me and my flowers and petra of course too.

but hell. i finally said yes and that's all that matters.

then on the way home from the airport

i'll be picking up my new little puppy.

have decided to call him leonard. and lenny for short.

yes, this has much to do with the fact

that my last puppy and the heartbeat of my life that he was,

was called bono

and now with the real mr. lenny kravitz

having been seen wearing one of my rings

i thought that was a mighty fine damn for the little guy.

and if you were to see him, i think you'd agree.


then on the tenth of june i'll be on my way to england.

a few days of portsmouth and a few days of london.

it'll be hard, leaving the little guy behind,

but this is the way it happened and plans i can't reverse.

i am however, looking just as forward to it as well.

meeting with a friend from australia,

who will be there holding conferences at the uni.

a lovely lady she is. an author.

and the other day she shared a little secret with me

that she's naming one of the charachters in her new book

right after me.

and i'm so full of wonder and questions

of what she'll be like?

a little bit of me, or maybe the me i wish i was?

i think at times that's what i'm most blessed with really.

simply friends.

they've been with me thru the ups. the downs.

push me along the way when i begin to stumble.


but these are simply days upon days upon days.


and i hope everyone is well.

i still come by. every now and seldom then.

but today it was coming by. and then letting go.

of photographs that are no more.

or maybe it's just setting more focus?

seeing a clearer picture?

not really sure. random fleeting thoughts on that.


these days are good. with their ups and downs i suppose.

but they all belong.

maybe it's just a part of the story.



ang.

what made you smile today...